Ignoring Urges of Violence
I didn't want to go into work today. The whole drive to work my stomach was in knots. I had no desire to see Joe. I'm tired of ignoring him and pretending that sitting four desks away from him doesn't bother me.
I called McMargie and asked her if the invitation still stood for spending Thursday night through Saturday morning at her home. She assured me it did and told me that I should never be afraid of overstaying my welcome. She said that I rarely come to visit and if I did come more often she would get upset if I came over more than once a week. Got to love her!
As soon as I got to work, I immediately put my headphones on. I kept my head down and watched several movies to pass the time. My work load wasn't too heavy and I was able to keep up with no real problems or concerns.
But then I made the mistake of looking at the other work loads. Things hadn't been done. Once I brought it to every one's attention, Joe started asking the other co-worker working with us about it. Joe said that the other co-worker was responsible for that area until a certain time. The other co-worker thought he was covering a different area. I tried to speak up but no one would listen to me. It was just a mess.
I finally walked away from my desk disgusted. I just wanted to punch someone in the face...particularly Joe. I ended up calling my mom and EJ to help calm me down instead. They both said punching someone in the face wasn't worth losing my job over. I know that. Then EJ made a point of telling me that my co-workers usually don't work and that I'm just overly irritated today because of all the other bullshit I am dealing with.
Eventually I calmed down and went back to my desk. The work was finally done. I made it through the rest of my shift with no violent outbursts and left 2 minutes early to avoid walking out to the parking lot with Joe. Now if I could just get through the next two days peacefully. Then I won't have to see Joe again until next Saturday. Woo Hoo!
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