Secrets and Fears

secret - adj. done, made, or conducted without the knowledge of others.

fear - n. a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.

I have a secret. Several in fact, that I have only shared with a few people if anyone at all. The latest secret I have only shared with 2 people. And only one of those two people know how the secret came about so to speak. I'm not making any sense, am I? OK here it goes.

I am planning on having surgery. Before I could be cleared for the surgery I needed to have my pre-op blood work and other testing done. During the course of this testing it was revealed that I have mild arthritis in my left knee and that my blood work showed something requiring more tests. After a second round of blood testing, I was referred to another doctor. A hemotologist or blood specialist as it were. When I called to make my appointment, I discovered that this specialist is an Oncologist.

The only 2 people I have shared this information with is Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) and my cousin-in-law. I haven't told my mother or anyone else in my family. Cause really there is nothing to tell. The earliest appointment they have is Friday, February 9th. After that appointment I should hopefully know something more.