Annoyed

Sometimes Joe (a.k.a. boyfriend) is just an asshole. He can't help it. Well, maybe he can and just chooses not to. Don't get me wrong. I love my gay friend. But there are times when his behavior is beyond annoying and passes into the asshole zone.

I'm not perfect. I don't claim to be. Hell, I got more flaws then any one person can count. One of my worst flaws is my inability to share. What's mine is mine. Maybe it stems from being an only child most of my life. Who knows? But I would much rather just give something away then share it. Like it is spoiled or something when someone else has touched it.

Anyway, "The Boy" made an observation to Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) one night about how attached I seem to be to Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) . I guess I am pretty territorial. But it doesn't mean I don't want Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) to find a mate. I just prefer he make me a priority. Hey, I was here before "The Boy" even if I don't have a penis!

Last night was the premiere of 6 new episodes of Dateline's "To Catch A Predator". We (me and everyone I have gotten addcited to the show) have been waiting for months to see these new episodes. I was beyond giddy when I found out they would begin airing last night. I called Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) about 15 minutes before it was to be on and attempted to wake him up. He fell back asleep and missed the next 5 or so phone calls I left on his machine.

When he finally came out of his self induced coma, he attempted to call me but I missed his call. He then immediately called "The Boy" and eventually spoke to me online. I informed him that he stood me up and he claimed he didn't cause we never had a date. Like I said, ever since "The Boy" has come into the picture I have to make appointments to do anything with Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend).

I was bugging Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) to listen to the crazy messages I had left on his machine while I watched the show. After much pushing, he finally did. Of course so did "The Boy". Unbeknownst to me, they were talking to each other on the phone at the same time Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) was chatting online with me.

When Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) finally got to work (he works the overnight shift) he called me. I told him I was mad that he stood me up and we continued to sort of play argue over the entire incident. I asked him if he ever listened to my messages on his machine and he admitted that he did, as did "The Boy". Then he proceded to tell me that "The Boy" said I sounded like a crazy black ghetto woman. That pissed me off.

When I told Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) that I didn't sound like a crazy black ghetto woman, he proceded to take "The Boy's" side and confirmed that I did. I then told him that "The Boy" doesn't know me well enough to make fun of me. He needs to get to know me before he takes such liberties. Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) just laughed at me and continued to take "The Boy's" side. I finally got off the phone with Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) as soon as the opportunity arose. Normally I play around alittle before finally getting off the phone with him, but I was too mad to play.

Of course, Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) probably finds my behavior childish and petty. And maybe you agree with him. But let me explain where I'm coming from. I know next to nothing about "The Boy". Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) has been very private in regards to thier relationship. I know his name and where he works. I know a few other simple statistical facts about him. But I don't know his screen name. I have seen his picture only once after they were speaking to one another for two weeks. I honestly don't remember what he looks like. I have never heard his voice. I have no idea what they talk about for hours at a time. And because Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) prefers it that way, I don't really push him about it.

And while Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) is very protective about thier relationship, he has no problem blabbing to "The Boy" about ours. Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) has explained several of our private jokes to "The Boy" . He knows about the song I sing to Joe's (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) habitual whistle tune. He knows about certain phrases that we share. Now that "The Boy" has listened to my phone messages, he seems to feel comfortable enough to make fun of me? And Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) seems to think that this is okay?

I had no problem with Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) sharing these tid bits with "The Boy" until now. Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) has earned the right to make fun of me, "The Boy" hasn't. And it seems to me that since he has some personal information about me he takes that as some misguided familiarity he has not actually earned. Maybe I am being over senistive. But I don't think so.

Joe (a.k.a gay boyfriend) explained that he has limited my knowledge of "The Boy" because he doesn't want any outside influences to sway their relationship. I can respect that. But while he is protecting this new relationship doesn't mean I am gonna stand by and allow him to abuse ours.