Final Nail In The Coffin

Again no explanation needed....

Joe's response to my email:

you are making me madder and madder and THAT is the reason I am not talkin to you like i used to...get your facts straight!....if you think that you should be held even near the same place a lover is held in my life, then you are wrong wrong wrong...if you think this is not bout jealousy, you are wrong wrong wrong....if you think that i am abandoning you cus of a guy, you are wrong wrong wrong...and if you are still hurt bout that stupid cell phone incident then you are still wrong wrong wrong.

the reason my friendship is over with you is because i have asked you to stop carrying on with the drama crap and you keep right on goin with it...so i am going away from it AND YOU in the process of escaping it.

And of course my response:

YOU ARE WRONG! I do have a my facts straight. You are the one that is blind! You purposely hurt my feelings (& continue to do so) and I am just supposed to get over it?! You allowed some stranger to me to talk to me like sh*t and I am just supposed to blow it off?! YOU OWE ME A F*CKING APOLOGY!!!!! You knew what he did was wrong. Hell, he knew what he did was wrong! But because I reacted the way that I did, that supposedly made NOT apologizing to me about it okay? I am upset over the fact that I was disrespected and never apologized to for it. It's not the incident itself as much as the total disregard for my feelings afterwards!

You throw me away and refuse to see what an @sshole you are being! I don't think I warrant the same consideration as a lover. I think I warrant consideration as your FRIEND! Your supposed BEST FRIEND until a lover came into the picture! You instantly stopped caring about my feelings once you and the husband became involved. And the second I tried to point that out to you, you turn things around on me. This drama of mine that you claim is so ridiculous is legitimate. And the reason I seem incapable of letting it end is because you fail to recognize why the drama even exists! It is in reaction to your behavior towards me. I promise you if the situation was reverse you would feel like I do.

I am NOT jealous of the husband. I have tried every way possible to be supportive of your relationship with him. You can't say that I haven't. I want you to be with him if that is what you really want, but I also wanted you to still be my friend at the same time which you seem incapable of doing! I am hurt (not jealous) that the simple things that I wanted you to do with me for years you flat out refused to do, but now you are doing them with him. I am hurt that you have completely abandoned me for him. YOU HAVE ABANDONED ME, JOE! CAN'T YOU SEE THAT?!?!?!?!?! You threw me away like trash because you found our friendship an inconvenience. I mean so little to you that you can just dispose of me like garbage? Maybe one day you will finally wake up and see how sh*tty that is!

You need to change your myspace page! Cause you are not f*cking loyal. You are not the best friend a person can have. You have no f*cking clue how to really be a person's friend. It requires emotional support and understanding. Two things you obviously have no idea how to give to a FRIEND!

Joe's Response:

DO NOT USE MY WORK EMAIL AS A CONTACT FOR PERSONAL USE....FURTHER USE WILL BE FORWARDED TO MANAGEMENT

My Response:

Management?! You fucking threaten me with management. UNBELIEVABLE!!!!!

You know, had you just apologized to me and recognized my feelings then all this drama could have gone away. You could have even said, "What happened was wrong. We did not mean to hurt you. I'm sorry you feel this way." You wouldn't have had to accept responsibility for my feelings, just recognize them. Sympathize with how I was feeling. Sometimes all people need is recognition. They fact that you refused to recognize my feelings and told me to get over it was just blatantly mean, cruel and uncalled for. You don't dismiss people that you care about. Regardless of them being your friends or lovers or family. Whatever level of a relationship you have with that person you are supposed to care about their feelings. And you know first hand how hurtful it is to have someone you care about dismiss you!

Why couldn't you apologize, Joe? You know I was entitled to it. Just because I had a reaction you did not like, did not negate the apology I was owed. And the longer you refused to consider my feelings the worse things became. Can you honestly say that your behavior the past two months has been right? Can you honestly say that after the cell phone incident that you haven't done things intentionally to hurt me? That ignoring me after Oliver died is acceptable behavior to you?

I know...dead horse...flies all around...too through...I just keep repeating myself cause I keep hoping one of these times it'll finally sink in what I am saying to you. That you will see what is so blatantly obvious to everyone else. I know I have some insecurities but you have them too. And while I tried in the past & present to reassure you & let you know that you matter to me, you couldn't be bothered to do the same for me. I needed something from you that you refused to give me. And it wouldn't have cost you anything! How hard would it have been to tell me what I meant to you? It seemed like as soon as you got a husband, I ceased to exist. Couldn't you have tried to understand where I am coming from? Couldn't you have tried to see how it made/makes me feel?