Revelations and Changes

Well , I just got off the phone with Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend). He has not read my emails yet. But he has saved them where he can read them later.

In the course of our discussion tonight it is was revealed that the ex is now the husband. I must admit I am surprised how quickly things have progressed between them. But Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) always told me how special the husband always was to him. He informed me that when they saw each other it was like nothing had changed. I mean obviously some things have changed, but their feelings for each other and their connection is still very much alive.

I won't lie and say that I'm not terrified. I mean Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) went from looking for a serious relationship, to in a relationship, to seriously committed/married in the course of 2 weeks. Now of course the person he has committed himself to is not a stranger, at least not to him. And I was not around when they were first together, so I cannot begin to truly understand their bond. But it is obvious that it exists. This person is important enough to Joe (a.k.a. gay boyfriend) for him to jump right back in to a seriously relationship with and take this chance of being extremely hurt by him again.

My first instinct is to protect him. But he is a grown man and needs to do this. So I have to stand back and offer whatever help and support I can. I'm kind of lost on how to be there for him though. I don't want to push, yet I don't want to completely back away and have him think I have abandoned him either. Things are strained between us and right now, at least on my end anyway. I'm trying to figure out how to navigate the changes. My hope is that all this drama and anxiety will be worth it and we will be even closer than before...